I feel like I have a lot to say and also nothing to say so I apologise if this post is rambling, incoherent, or says nothing of value. I just wanted to write. I love writing. Always have. It is my biggest passion. I write my songs, which I now (once never would have dreamt of) release to the public on platforms like iTunes and Spotify under Miserableisobel and I write my books and blog. I haven't kept up with my blog for a while because I got out of the habit of posting regularly, I'm going to start posting more regularly hopefully as I hadn't realised until now people were actually members of this site! Or that people were actually reading what I wrote. That means a lot to me. People from all over the world! This journey of self discovery has been very painful and enlightening simultaneously, but also isolating. Knowing this makes me feel less alone. Baby was a huge part of who I was and losing her as an identity left me vulnerable, weak, ill, lonely and inevitably grieving and terrified. I didn't know who I was anymore, where to go from there, what the hell had happened, how I'd let it, I wanted to put all the pieces together. For some reason I've always had this insatiable need to be understood. So I wanted to explain everything, to the whole world, have every single person alive tell me it was not strange, and then I could move on. This is not a simple task. I have done my very best to achieve it, however, and the more times I tell my story the better I feel. So I keep going, writing songs and books and blog posts. Hoping they reach whoever might need to hear it, and hoping it patches me up too. Thank you for reading this incredibly short blog post I will include some other songs and quotes and photos :)
Noah Kahan songs in general always put me in a good mood or feel understood - my favourite is Stick Season
Then there's:
She used to be mine , Sara Bareilles
This is me , the greatest showman
Groundhog Day , CMAT
Numb little bug , Em Beihold
W.I.T.C.H , Devon Cole
Can't wait to be pretty , Cate
2 Be Loved , Lizzo
A lot of these songs are in my new book Bye Bye, Baby by Caitlin Strømmen
A book about saying goodbye to my false identity, Baby, the grief involved and the songs and quotes that helped me through it
Margaret Atwood quotes I like
“We thought we had such problems. How were we to know we were happy?”
"“But who can remember pain, once it’s over? All that remains of it is a shadow, not in the mind even, in the flesh. Pain marks you, but too deep to see. Out of sight, out of mind.”
“A rat in a maze is free to go anywhere, as long as it stays inside the maze.”
Thank you for reading my blog post, I'll try and make the next blog post a little bit longer x
Music: Miserableisobel on everything , my new album Castles was released last week
Books: Caitlin Strommen on Amazon, and Waterstones and Barnes and Noble online
Podcast: The Baby Diaries on Spotify
I also sell merchandise through Spotify if you scroll right to the bottom of the page if anyone's interested:)
I appreciate all and any support 🤍
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